As a kid i remember the chocolates then known as Cadbury, gifted to me by the guests. I used to first keep it in refrigerator That 1 bar of chocolate used be shared with siblings and parents, or anyone else present at home that time. One bite a day, that chocolate used to be enjoyed for a week if not more.
Now, I go anytime and buy any expensive chocolate whenever I want. And finish it start to end in a minute.
But I don’t find the taste which I had as a kid. The chocolate, shared with everyone, and ate over a period of time was always much sweeter and delicious than any chocolate I eat alone today.
Sharing makes such a huge difference, isn’t it?
There is a place deep within us that wants feel fulfilled. That wants to know that my life made a difference; that I have left this place; the planet that I have lived on, better than when I arrived; that someone’s life has been profoundly touched because of my existence. We all want that.
It is not about age or about finding yourself, Whoever you are; at whatever age, you only a thought away; from changing you life.
This Thursday, i continued listening to those songs after working hours. It was a nice mixed collection of rock, metal, pop and Indian films. I was not bothering much to the lyrics, but the music was pleasing me. I was listening to such loud music after a long time. And the music turned my lousy day into energetic evening. I went to Durergasse enjoying the same trance. Thursdays are very special in Vienna. I can do my long kriya, sing some good songs with the group. It is fun always.
But this time it was a little bit more. I had a wonderful long kriya that day. I remember, when I was done with the kriya and heard Guruji saying, “if you wish, you may lie down” and I wanted to but I couldn’t. I was frozen. And then I noticed, I was not breathing then, for a noticeable long time probably and I continued it for some more time. in fact I wasn’t doing that. It was happening to me. it was effortless.. and it was beautiful. in that state, I realized, i had no thoughts, no wish, nothing to do, I realized, I was but I wasn’t anybody. i was that nobody. I felt very light.
And then breaking those moments, my first breath was in.
Was that a meditation? Was that trailer of Samadhi? I don’t know! and I don’t bother!
I just know that I lived those beautiful moments of my life. I was alive, satisfied, feeling complete and whole..
One year from the day I quit smoking and liquor. Life still moves on. It has got a better vision, a better perspective, a healthy life style. I can run 6 kms without problem, I can skate for 13 kms; stamina is growing. And when I do any of such outdoor activities; when I get tired, I fill my lungs with that fresh air, that long deep breath. It feels so good. I can make out the difference. Difference in filling the lungs with the beautiful fresh air given by nature and filling the lungs with the smoke and tar which not only destroys you but many other around you and certainly harms your next generation, if at all you care about it.
I always wanted to quit smoking, I tried many different things. Reducing from 10 to 8-6-3-2-1.. and skipping the time when I used to smoke, the tablets which helps quit smoking. But everything was in vein until I did my Art Of Living basic course. Just 3 days and it changed my life for good. I was supposed to quit smoking only for 3 days during the course and I did. Those 3 days were so full of energy, learning many new good things, exercise, dancing, singing, chit-chats and sharing, knowing new people and knowing yourself. Those 3 days made me realize how it makes difference in burning lungs and giving them the fresh air, a.k.a prana-vayu. When I was back to my life; I never had that urge to smoke.